It shouldn’t come as a surprise to people when I say that I want to find love. The problem is, at this point in my life, I’m afraid to say “I love you” to another person after all of the shit that I’ve been through.

Also not going to lie, I started crying while editing this episode when I went on about my past and having the last 2 men in my life not feel the same way. Has it emotionally destroyed me? Absolutely. Will I move on and open myself up to someone new when the time is right? Absolutely. 

I’m a sappy fucking romantic, and I love everyone. Except you. And you. And most of you. But everyone else. I have no problem telling my friends I love them, I’ve told bartenders I love them, and I’ve fallen in love just from seeing a beautiful smile. I think the world would be a better place if we could all express our true feelings, but the problem lies with this: when (not if – when) things aren’t entirely mutual, an expression of love sets up expectations of something that may never be. So be careful, use it when it’s right, and make sure you understand your relationship well first. And do as I say, not as I do, because I’m the fucking worst.